Beauty never held by K.E Mdeni

The first gaze at her was so vivid but unforgettable, my mind is forever lost in her beauty, her lips, her eyes, and her scent like a bunch of roses in the morning, but that is all I can ever blurt about as courage had escaped and cowardly emotions emerged.

I stayed for hours & hours pondering, with an unusual feeling and mixed emotions, my mind was filled with rage and immense regret. The first time I saw her made me shiver, I dared not utter a single word to her, and I never understood the reason why, but instead I let fear overwhelm me, and so I watched her walk away with no hope of ever laying my eyes on such beauty again, cheerful character & body built like a swan.

My intentions were good, but I was caught in a moment of still. My mind was not at ease as I questioned my stupidity and foolishness, till today  my heart is filled with great regret. How could I have let her out of my sight, with no action nor words said to express how I felt,  but only an unexplainable feeling that left me with my mouth hanging and heart racing uncontrollably. I was battling in my mind confused of my actions, with my heart pounding like a drum as if about to leave my body. My thoughts tormented me day and night.

I acted foolish, and like a king whose lost  a battle I had failed myself but within me faith still existed and so I had to fight and win the battle, the war in my head and the weaknesses that brought failure and defeat.  I had to regain my strength; fight and gain back my pride & dignity.

I had no hope of ever seeing her again, but with faith never lost I had something to hold on to (her beauty and innocence). I made a promise to myself, that if I ever lay my eyes on her again I would be prepared, with her I would write our names on the stars, invent a weapon that would fight against all evil, evil that would try to tear us apart and with her I would create a story of a lifetime, memories that would never fade, and joy that would keep us together forever happily ever after with no human existing in a world of our own.

By K.E Mdeni